I got little sleep these past few days. And yesterday, I was severely exhausted. I was still at the office at 11 pm, and my work was still far from done. I am worried and fearful of not meeting the deadline. I felt uneasy to push my already-small team, and I was anxious it would cross their lines. Having to deal with an irresponsible counterpart forces me to deliver late and low-quality results. Failure after failure drains my energy and pushes me into self-inadequacy thought.
I got all my problems occupying my mind like a tangled long thread.
I was prepared to stay at the office and come home early in the morning to change clothes. I then texted my husband to tell him not to pick me up. He asked whether it would be more convenient for me to stay at the nearby hotel. He quickly booked a hotel room in front of my office, picked up my belongings from home, and went to the hotel.
Unexpectedly I felt a stream of warm feelings in my heart. On the spur of the moment, my mind counts the blessings of such a robust support system surrounding me. I have parents who always support my career, however weird my choices are, constantly pray for me, and give me plenty of good advice for my career and life in general. I just got 4 team members out of the ideal 8, but they are resourceful and willing to go to extra mile to complete the tasks. I got a brilliant and protective mentor. I work for a very stable company with very advanced-minded owners with high integrity.
All of a sudden, good feelings are coming from just one text, which instantly changes my mental state. At least this one person cares for me, and I would not trade it for the world. I am ready to challenge the world.
PS: For my husband, thank you for being you. My Mom once said we got a “tumbu ketemu tutup” marriage. It is a Javanese saying for a couple that is really compatible with each other, completing and supporting each other. I am grateful for each decision I made in life. And all the decisions that led me to you are one of my bests. 🙂
The Hayyan Chronicle 
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